Stories By Hope

“Kiss me.” I suddenly said and felt his hand still on my back. “You’re awake?” he asked in a surprised voice. What? Did he think I’d be able to sleep through it? I sat up…the covers falling off my body. “Yes.” “Bibi, Lola and I broke up a long time ago. I didn’t…” “Just kiss me so we can get over this Lola ish.” I cut him off.  After all, I knew the whole story…Kendra made sure. And yes, it would have been nice to hear it from the horse’s mouth but I couldn’t wait. I wanted that mouth on me. He stared at me for a while…I remember wondering if he felt unsure. Then he leaned in and kissed me. Deep and hungrily… Then pulled away. Not again…I was beginning to think but couldnt finish when he looked me in the eyes (I mean, it was dark but he had to be) and said,  “I love you Bibi.” My heart stopped…he finally said it to me…to my face And he kissed me again…. And then the world was right again. THE END Thanks y'all for reading  The Secret Diaries ...

  Three weeks in Vegas and we were headed back! It happened to be the best time of my life. I’m sorry Kendra, I thought to myself. I’ve had really good times with you…I mean you’re my best friend but someone has surpassed you in that… Daniel… My boyfriend. Yes, you heard me right!    The business trip only lasted one week and I played my part as a ghost P.A. my only job was to record the proceedings of the meeting…with a pen. It wasn’t easy trying to catch most of the words as they rolled back and forth between the two parties but I did my best. In the end, it wasn’t necessary, Daniel had only given me the pretend job just to have me with him. The meetings were video recorded from start to finish…I only found out when it was all over but I wasn’t upset. I wasn’t upset that he had manipulated me into going with him, after all, he was the spender…who still had to pay for my pretend job. The morning before we were supposed to head back home, he made...

Everyone agreed. Especially me… Kendra and I loved watching movies together. We’d joke and tease the different actors that seemed fake. Yemi’s conversation with his friend broke off immediately. He turned on the D.V.D player and slid in a disc saying, “You guys will love this movie.” We arranged ourselves on the three huge couches. I don’t know how but I found myself on the couch we’d been sitting on since we got there…and Kendra in between yemi and i…the other girl, gone. Oh I know…he was the newcomer…he must have actually been looking at her at some point. One of the guys turned off the lights and I felt Kendra hold my hand. I wondered if it was because she was nervous sitting really close to her crush. I put my fingers in the spaces between her fingers and hold her hand tight. The movie started off on a funny note and I felt my friend relax beside me. As the movie went on, I remember thinking to myself that it was comedy…comedy they say heals the heart…an...

“No throwing yourself at him.” “Throwing my…” “Just promise.” “Fine. I promise.” “I know it felt good…the sex …but it’s a rebound thing.” I continued. “If he’s going to want you, he should because he really does, not because you’re offering comfort.” “Yeah.” Said Kendra, rolling her eyes. “Said the girl who’s doing Daniel” “My thing with Daniel is totally different…think it through girl.” I rolled my eyes back at her. And then I remembered I was supposed to tell her about the trip but after what we had just talked about, I decided to tell her later. I wasn’t sure she wouldn’t talk me out of it. I mean, She knew I was on talking terms with Daniel, but I had convinced her it was just platonic…just friends…but this trip spelled out a lot of things. I was convinced one of her lines going to be there’s no way you guys won’t do each other over there. In my mind, I felt it was true…I thought about it over and over and realised I was actually looking forward to it. P...

I had to look out for my friend. She'd gone and fallen in love with some rich, arrogant dude. The type who had women falling all over him and so took advantage. Bibi found out the hard way... And that was after she'd lost her v... to him. It made me mad to know that Bibi still had feelings for the guy... She froze every time she saw him. I wanted to slap her all those times but couldn't... Couldn't blame her either, I know she tried her best to forget him but it was hard. I did my best too... I hooked her up some other guys...rich guys but it never went beyond the first date. She was never interested. I gave up then. L et Bibi do whatever she wants, I told myself. I needed to respect her feelings even though it mad me mad. I cared about her alot. That was why when after an hour she'd told she needed to pee she wasn't back,  I got worried and started looking for her... She was missing the party... Hell,  I was missing the party by looking fo...

In my time off, the most unsatisfying thing I did was have sex with other girls. Several other girls. It felt like a punishment because my mind was never in it. I always felt like pushing the girl out of my bed as soon as I spill it out. And when I was home and not all up in some girl, I found myself trying to text Bibi and deciding at the last minute not to. Once I wrote something on paper... A note to her... I swore I was going to give it to her the minute I crossed paths with her but every time I did, I couldn't muster the courage. She always looked like she didn't have a grudge against me. She'd smile but walk past me without a word and I'd feel guilty all over again. Then remind myself I needed to apologize to her... Don't know why I never did. I finally decided to if at Toye's  cocktail party. As usual, Kendra brought her along. My plans were beginning to work. Well, it had to... I tried to approach her when Kendra wasn't clos...