In my time off, the most unsatisfying thing I did was have sex with other girls.
Several other girls.
It felt like a punishment because my mind was never in it.
I always felt like pushing the girl out of my bed as soon as I spill it out.
And when I was home and not all up in some girl, I found myself trying to text Bibi and deciding at the last minute not to.
Once I wrote something on paper...
A note to her...
I swore I was going to give it to her the minute I crossed paths with her but every time I did, I couldn't muster the courage.
She always looked like she didn't have a grudge against me.
She'd smile but walk past me without a word and I'd feel guilty all over again.
Then remind myself I needed to apologize to her...
Don't know why I never did.
I finally decided to if at Toye's cocktail party.
As usual, Kendra brought her along.
My plans were beginning to work.
Well, it had to...
I tried to approach her when Kendra wasn't close and she ran off.
I don't know where but it was obvious she'd just avoided me.
She continued to...
I tried to cross paths with her again and again but it didn't work.
She was really avoiding me...
Like the first time we met.
I was about to give in when am idea struck me.
A note...
She couldn't avoid a note.
I passed one to her through one of the waiters and watched to see her reaction when she found out who it was from.
The waiter pointed at him...
Jeez i specifically asked the bastard not to...
But she had looked at me then, long enough for me to notice something in her soften.
Maybe she still wanted me...
Maybe she still liked me at least...
I'd have settled for any of that as long as it was a chance with her.
Several other girls.
It felt like a punishment because my mind was never in it.
I always felt like pushing the girl out of my bed as soon as I spill it out.
And when I was home and not all up in some girl, I found myself trying to text Bibi and deciding at the last minute not to.
Once I wrote something on paper...
A note to her...
I swore I was going to give it to her the minute I crossed paths with her but every time I did, I couldn't muster the courage.
She always looked like she didn't have a grudge against me.
She'd smile but walk past me without a word and I'd feel guilty all over again.
Then remind myself I needed to apologize to her...
Don't know why I never did.
I finally decided to if at Toye's cocktail party.
As usual, Kendra brought her along.
My plans were beginning to work.
Well, it had to...
I tried to approach her when Kendra wasn't close and she ran off.
I don't know where but it was obvious she'd just avoided me.
She continued to...
I tried to cross paths with her again and again but it didn't work.
She was really avoiding me...
Like the first time we met.
I was about to give in when am idea struck me.
A note...
She couldn't avoid a note.
I passed one to her through one of the waiters and watched to see her reaction when she found out who it was from.
The waiter pointed at him...
Jeez i specifically asked the bastard not to...
But she had looked at me then, long enough for me to notice something in her soften.
Maybe she still wanted me...
Maybe she still liked me at least...
I'd have settled for any of that as long as it was a chance with her.
Five minutes later...
After she'd read the note...
She was still seated.
But I asked her to please meet me outside.
Damn, she was really making it hard for me.
Or did she want me to get up first?
After she'd read the note...
She was still seated.
But I asked her to please meet me outside.
Damn, she was really making it hard for me.
Or did she want me to get up first?
I got up...
Then went outside.
Few minutes later, I noticed her leaving too.
But she wasn't coming in the direction of where I was, she was going into the kitchen.
I shook my head and went in after her.
She looked behind her, saw me and moved faster.
What was she trying to do?
Manipulate me with her movements??
Hell, I was a bit of a manipulator too.
Then went outside.
Few minutes later, I noticed her leaving too.
But she wasn't coming in the direction of where I was, she was going into the kitchen.
I shook my head and went in after her.
She looked behind her, saw me and moved faster.
What was she trying to do?
Manipulate me with her movements??
Hell, I was a bit of a manipulator too.
I caught up with her and grabbed her hand. She asked me to leave her alone but I was way out of my senses at that point.
I pulled her out through the kitchen (FYI, it was a big kitchen with lots of people going in and out), towards the back door.
Towards the back of the building...where no one else was.
"Where are you taking Me? " she kept asking.
Then yelled,
"Leave me alone."
I wasn't hearing her... The noise in the kitchen was too much.
Actually, that wasn't why.
I was deafened by my thoughts...
Thoughts about what I wanted to do with right then.
I finally got her outside and in a garden area.
I pulled her out through the kitchen (FYI, it was a big kitchen with lots of people going in and out), towards the back door.
Towards the back of the building...where no one else was.
"Where are you taking Me? " she kept asking.
Then yelled,
"Leave me alone."
I wasn't hearing her... The noise in the kitchen was too much.
Actually, that wasn't why.
I was deafened by my thoughts...
Thoughts about what I wanted to do with right then.
I finally got her outside and in a garden area.
Before she could say anything, I pulled her towards me and kissed her.
Her immediate response was to pull away and then a slap.
On my face...
But I didn't feel a thing though
I was so soaked in lust and passion and maybe love all at once.
I thought she was going to run off again when turned away from me but she didn't...
She moved in on me and kissed me back.
Hungrily...
Like she was starving...
Apparently, she still felt something for me.
I had no time to think of that then.
Her immediate response was to pull away and then a slap.
On my face...
But I didn't feel a thing though
I was so soaked in lust and passion and maybe love all at once.
I thought she was going to run off again when turned away from me but she didn't...
She moved in on me and kissed me back.
Hungrily...
Like she was starving...
Apparently, she still felt something for me.
I had no time to think of that then.
Like two mad people aiming for one spot, tearing up all the obstacles in our way, we undressed each other.
Then made love right there on the grass...
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