Stories By Hope

We got to my room and I didn't hesitate at all. I just grabbed his face and started kissing him. Don't judge me; I’d been wanting to for weeks. He pushed me aside gently and I felt really embarrassed. I wasn't that kind of girl... I was just... OK; I don't need to explain myself. "Can we just talk? You know...get to know each other.” he said. "I thought you wanted sex." "Yes...and I still do. I just like to know about who I’m doing it with." "Wait..." I started...smiling. "You were going to do that with her and in the toilet,” I exclaimed and started laughing "No..." he started, "I mean, no! I wasn’t and that’s not funny, i...” "It's just a question." I said, cutting him shut. He kept quiet for a moment and then said, “No, I wasn't. I wasn't even going to have sex with her." "I'm sure that wasn't what she was thinking." I said. And this tim...

I needed to use the toilet... I don't know why alcohol makes me want to pee every time...does it happen to you? Anyways, I hated using the toilet during the parties because, it would always turn out that you were intruding on something. They keep forgetting it's my house. I left the house to make use of a friend's...thank God I had a friend who lived closed by and when I got back, what do I find? The Nkem guy dancing with one of those chics who like to get laid...with whoever. I wasn't going to let that happen. If he was here, then he was mine alone so I walked up to them and tried to catch his attention but it was so obvious he was pretending not to have seen me. I stood there wondering what to do... eyeing the chic... thinking about pushing her off but  decided to be polite at the last minute. I told the chic I was with him and when she tried to prove strong headed, I shot her those Cleopatra stares of mine and she got the message. Yes, people say ...

My sister Gabrielle was a party freak! There never was a weekend a party wasn't holding at our house. The house would be filled with people...most of them, I don't know. People tend to invite their friends to parties only they were invited to.  The booming sound coming from the music was always a pain in the ass for the neighbours. Yes they complained... ...but they could never do anything about it since we're still in Nigeria and nobody wants to take up a court case for noisy neighbours. I won't lie, as much as I didn't like that the noise disturbed the neighbours, I enjoyed those parties a lot. There was always drinking and dancing.... I know, that always happen at parties. Once or so, I would walk in on couples having sex in the bathroom...now that part irritates me. How horny can one get that a bathroom becomes comfortable enough for sex? I'm never trying that...at all. It was in one of these parties that i met him... Nkem... at first we w...

“Kiss me.” I suddenly said and felt his hand still on my back. “You’re awake?” he asked in a surprised voice. What? Did he think I’d be able to sleep through it? I sat up…the covers falling off my body. “Yes.” “Bibi, Lola and I broke up a long time ago. I didn’t…” “Just kiss me so we can get over this Lola ish.” I cut him off.  After all, I knew the whole story…Kendra made sure. And yes, it would have been nice to hear it from the horse’s mouth but I couldn’t wait. I wanted that mouth on me. He stared at me for a while…I remember wondering if he felt unsure. Then he leaned in and kissed me. Deep and hungrily… Then pulled away. Not again…I was beginning to think but couldnt finish when he looked me in the eyes (I mean, it was dark but he had to be) and said,  “I love you Bibi.” My heart stopped…he finally said it to me…to my face And he kissed me again…. And then the world was right again. THE END Thanks y'all for reading  The Secret Diaries ...

Everyone agreed. Especially me… Kendra and I loved watching movies together. We’d joke and tease the different actors that seemed fake. Yemi’s conversation with his friend broke off immediately. He turned on the D.V.D player and slid in a disc saying, “You guys will love this movie.” We arranged ourselves on the three huge couches. I don’t know how but I found myself on the couch we’d been sitting on since we got there…and Kendra in between yemi and i…the other girl, gone. Oh I know…he was the newcomer…he must have actually been looking at her at some point. One of the guys turned off the lights and I felt Kendra hold my hand. I wondered if it was because she was nervous sitting really close to her crush. I put my fingers in the spaces between her fingers and hold her hand tight. The movie started off on a funny note and I felt my friend relax beside me. As the movie went on, I remember thinking to myself that it was comedy…comedy they say heals the heart…an...

In my time off, the most unsatisfying thing I did was have sex with other girls. Several other girls. It felt like a punishment because my mind was never in it. I always felt like pushing the girl out of my bed as soon as I spill it out. And when I was home and not all up in some girl, I found myself trying to text Bibi and deciding at the last minute not to. Once I wrote something on paper... A note to her... I swore I was going to give it to her the minute I crossed paths with her but every time I did, I couldn't muster the courage. She always looked like she didn't have a grudge against me. She'd smile but walk past me without a word and I'd feel guilty all over again. Then remind myself I needed to apologize to her... Don't know why I never did. I finally decided to if at Toye's  cocktail party. As usual, Kendra brought her along. My plans were beginning to work. Well, it had to... I tried to approach her when Kendra wasn't clos...