My heart is racing a thousand miles per hour and I don’t know how to still it, my forehead is splitting from a headache that I can’t remember feeling before I went to bed the night before. I mean, I was anxious but I didn’t cry.
Okay, maybe a little bit as I said my prayers before climbing into bed last night, but I felt at peace right after.
A lot has been on my mind lately. I seriously am afraid of what the future holds for me…I keep thinking about the things I’ve lost.
Will I ever get them back, or will I get much better things than them? And how long before they get to me?
Timing. Pressure.
Pressure especially. We all feel that one day of the other.
Is it easy to go through pressure when you have the people who love you around? What if you don’t have anyone?
A lot of people might be hurt if they heard you say you didn’t have anyone but do they know that a person can have lots of people around and still feel like they don’t? Do they know the feeling of not having anyone?
Wait. Tell me. If you have lots of people you know, that you’re really close with and you need them to be there for you in a certain way or ways that you know they can afford to be, that if the tables were turned and they needed you, you would not hesitate to be there for them like that,
If you asked for their help and they ignored you, refused to help, gave false or even real excuses why that time was not a good time…and yet they never followed up or it caused a rift in your relationship with them, do you really have them?
Well, i have found out that the most important thing to have now is HOPE. Hope in God, hope in his word, belief and dependence in him because with that you can never go wrong. You can never feel alone!
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