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The Secret Diaries 1


I didn’t realise when he came in and sat beside me on the couch until he brushed aside a strand of hair dangling across my face. I looked at him and smiled and he smiled back. 
Taking it as a lead, I reached out and took his hand…then I told him how much fun I’ve had this night...
Then i tore my gaze from him to the t.v, not really seeing anything else but him in my mind’s eye. 
Then in a soft voice, I said to him,
"You treat me special, real special even though I’m probably not that special woman in your life."
He just shrugged and said,
"Maybe..."
"Maybe I haven’t met her or maybe I have…what about you? any really special guy in your life?"
"Oh I’m not into guys," I reply.

He just looked at me surprised and asked if I’m lesbian. 
I burst out in laughter so hard that I could barely control myself. It was enough to infect him.
Still laughing he said,
"You don’t look lesbian to me, you look like a lady who can get down with any guy she wants."
I suddenly stopped  laughing and stared at him in disbelief.
"And to think I actually thought you were the gay one." I said.  
He got all serious and let his gaze slide down the length of my really curvy petite body. This made me a bit shy and I looked down, feeling as if I had nothing good enough for him to see. Oh gosh, was this the reason he never tried to touch me...

 I’m a bit lost in my thought though not too lost to miss when he said,
"Seriously, I could prove myself to you right now…
so you’ll tell me if I’m gay or not" 
He was looking at in a way i can only term foxy sly 
"oh no," I started, "Being gay doesn’t work in Nigeria." 

A little uneasy I looked away, taking the remote from him. 
He took it back the minute I was about to change the channel and said,
"Are you scared?" 
I just shook my head, not wanting to meet his eyes because it might give me away but he continued,
"Then why are you acting like you are?" then he eyes widened "virgin?" 
I pretended not to hear him and tried hard to concentrate on the t.v.
"I thought as much.  A woman who isn't virgin would have come on to me by now.. I mean, I’m that hot. ” 

  Oh jeez,  how could he just conclude that even when i didn’t answer and be so right? I didn’t even want him to know that. 
  He was so arrogant sometimes and yet I liked him all the same and so much already.
Why wouldn’t I? 
He was so desirable, every female noticed. 
When he realized I wasn’t answering, he turned me towards him and made me look in his eyes..
Really melting eyes but nothing could be more melting at that moment than what he said next.

"Can i make you a woman? I’d really love to."
 What? Can you believe that? He asked me that...
I broke my gaze from his. How could i bear to still look in his eyes?
But i wasn’t upset,
Infact his offer was so tempting because suddenly, his touch was so tempting...
Everything about him was so tempting... 
I was so  speechless but i didn’t want him to feel it and i didn’t want to keep playing ignorant because i didn’t want him to think i was dumb
Plus i didn’t want him upset with me so i said,
"i’m not ready for sex." 
 "why?"
"Because it hurts, especially the first time."
"I’ll be gentle with you, it’ll be  quite easy, you won’t even know when it happens." 
  The expression on my face must have been pretty bad and prolly made him feel like i don't want or trust him to because he just waved his hand and turned to continue watching t.v. 
I started feeling really bad.
I couldn’t read his thoughts because there was no expression on his face but i felt he was upset and i couldn’t bear for him to be..who knows, he might start avoiding me and that i couldn’t stand.  
I mean, if i wasn’t going to get his love, i should atleast get his like and money so in my mind, i decided to do it..
  Atleast if i had a baby, it would be really cute like it’s father...
but i didn’t know how to tell him i’d do it afterall so i just sat there staring at him...
Willing him to turn around and ask me again so i could say yes but he made it tough and my mind kept telling me it was intentional.
 And then he just…
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